not anti....just not that into you 9/11

So I am boycotting many things tomorrow...as it is the 10th anniversary since the terrorist attacks....it is not that I am not empathetic...I really am...I could never imagine having personally knowing someone...but I wonder if on December 7, 1951 there were celebrations, tributes, etc for the bombing on Pearl Harbor.  I cannot imagine pagentry and what not.  Even 70 years later...still...solemn...not  celebrated.  There will be no facebook...I will avoid TV like the plague....I think that these days...it has become over hyped and the memorium of it all is gone.  So...it is not that I am anti...I am just not that into September 11th...

I hate my boss

Ok...now that I have said it...I feel SO much better.  I hate her and her snottiness and the way she talks down to me.  I am 4 years younger than her...give me a freakin' break.  I wish somehow she would just leave.  Poof...disappear into another dimension!  I need to create something that would do that...where is Heinz Doofinshmirtz when I need him??!!!

I think she makes coming to work sad.  And I count the 360 days I have left until she leaves.  I will be so happy when she is gone.  My motto is just to shut up and hide.   Out of sight and out of mind!

not good

Ok.  So I am starting over beginning tomorrow.  Although I have not been inherently awful today...just liking the oh so yummy homemade granola bars.  Which I need to share with my group.  I think going back to work and trying not to find things to do with my time will help.  Normally I read, but this summer I did not do very well.  Oh well...I will read this school year..ha ha!

day of reckoning

Ok so I have been sick of salad and fruit and veggies...and it has gained me 5 pounds.  I have to remember that to eat out is to enjoy company...not just the food.  My mission is that by labor day I will be in better control.  That gives me 5 weeks.  I can do this.  I can refocus and have a better energy.  Wish me luck!

Harry Potter finale

Oh today was a sad day...the last Harry Potter movie.  I was saddened by the end of my era with Harry.  Although I am itching to read them with my 5 year old.  I think the culmination of the end was mindblowing.  I began reading the books and seeing the movie way back when I was still living in Reno.  I had in my life another man and his kids, and to see now how my life has evolved in unbelievable.  I got to share the last movie with Memphis, my son.  Now I am saddened that the era is over, that the boy in the cupboard is grown up and gone.  I wish I could have paused time in the theater to mourn.  I cried much during the movie, because I knew that it was over.  Oh well.  I guess I have to grow up sometime.    I will write more about it soon.  I think I have to process the end!

Thoughts of whelmdom

So I am stuck in a rut with food.  I have lost so much weight only to forget how wonderful it was to be skinny.  But seriously...I am so tired of eating fruit and veggies.  I wish I wanted fruit and veggies all the time.  I want to figure this out.  I want to eat Oreos, brownies, and ice cream.  But alas...I got 5 pounds to lose again.  This week, I will write about my journey...my hope that by the time school begins...I will fit into my capris I just bought.  I am overwhelmed right now, but in 7 days...I hope to be underwhelemed.