not good

Ok.  So I am starting over beginning tomorrow.  Although I have not been inherently awful today...just liking the oh so yummy homemade granola bars.  Which I need to share with my group.  I think going back to work and trying not to find things to do with my time will help.  Normally I read, but this summer I did not do very well.  Oh well...I will read this school year..ha ha!

day of reckoning

Ok so I have been sick of salad and fruit and veggies...and it has gained me 5 pounds.  I have to remember that to eat out is to enjoy company...not just the food.  My mission is that by labor day I will be in better control.  That gives me 5 weeks.  I can do this.  I can refocus and have a better energy.  Wish me luck!

Harry Potter finale

Oh today was a sad day...the last Harry Potter movie.  I was saddened by the end of my era with Harry.  Although I am itching to read them with my 5 year old.  I think the culmination of the end was mindblowing.  I began reading the books and seeing the movie way back when I was still living in Reno.  I had in my life another man and his kids, and to see now how my life has evolved in unbelievable.  I got to share the last movie with Memphis, my son.  Now I am saddened that the era is over, that the boy in the cupboard is grown up and gone.  I wish I could have paused time in the theater to mourn.  I cried much during the movie, because I knew that it was over.  Oh well.  I guess I have to grow up sometime.    I will write more about it soon.  I think I have to process the end!

Thoughts of whelmdom

So I am stuck in a rut with food.  I have lost so much weight only to forget how wonderful it was to be skinny.  But seriously...I am so tired of eating fruit and veggies.  I wish I wanted fruit and veggies all the time.  I want to figure this out.  I want to eat Oreos, brownies, and ice cream.  But alas...I got 5 pounds to lose again.  This week, I will write about my journey...my hope that by the time school begins...I will fit into my capris I just bought.  I am overwhelmed right now, but in 7 days...I hope to be underwhelemed.